What IS Laughing At Grappling?

I'm sure it's confusing you a whole lot. Don't worry. That'll happen more than you think. Let me explain.

Laughing at grappling is just that: laughing at how and why and what I experience and deal with.

Laughing at grappling means that a person handles problems with humor whenever possible.

Laughing at grappling means that something can be dark or horrible...something can be twisted or wrong...something could be offensive or hurtful or saddening...but it can be laughed at or joked about.

Laughing at grappling means that you know that something is wrong, that something isn't quite clicking the way it's meant to and the only way you can deal with it is by cracking wise.

Laughing at grappling means that you try to strike the balance between taking yourself seriously and taking nothing seriously.

Laughing at grappling means that every single neuron in your brain could be telling you to shut up, shut down, break down, and reset...but you say "no" and laugh about a talent agent (if you know what that means, congrats - you are much cooler than I thought).

Laughing at grappling means that you can be crying inside but smiling outside.

Laughing at grappling does NOT mean that everything is okay.

It does NOT mean that you're not hurting.

It does NOT mean that your heart isn't tearing or your brain isn't telling you to just sleep or you're not gritting your teeth to make it through the day.

It does NOT mean that you're happy.

It means that you are telling a joke to cope.

Laughing at grappling means that you are like me. God help you.